I'm heading to Indianapolis in the morning and, as usual the night before I leave for somewhere, I find myself unable to sleep. I keep running over the items already packed, whether they are enough/ correct, and whether I remembered everything I needed. I keep replaying in my head all of the things I was supposed to do today before I left, the blunders I made while trying to squeeze all of this in, and whether or not I forgot anything. I keep reminding myself that I need to get my shower utensils in the morning - oh god, how am I going to put my shampoo in my bag, oh god - and my contacts/glasses/solution/etc. I keep playing worst-case scenarios in my mind: what if I forgot my shower stuff, what if I wake up late (or not at all), what if I don't have the right clothes?
And then there are the other considerations: what if my presentation completely sucks? What if I freeze? What if I lose my jump drive? What if my computer stops working? What if my jump drive refuses to work? What if my room isn't powerpoint-equipped? What if it is powerpoint-equipped, but the powerpoint decides to stop working? What if someone asks me a question I can't answer or disagrees with my conclusion?
I've presented at a conference before, but not as myself with work exclusively my own. Dr. Panetta, where are you to help fill in the gaps where I can't? Tim, where are you to talk so I don't have to?
I gave the presentation to Jordan earlier, but presenting to your boyfriend while sitting on your own bed isn't exactly indicative of how my conference experience is going to be.
I am excited about attending, though. I love conferences. The other student attending and I are both presenting on Saturday morning - think about us while you are, more than likely, still sleeping.